Autumn....

Beautiful day. Soft warm autumn colours and a mild breeze whistling through the reeds by the pond.....I and Clara had a slouch midday nap/readtime on the patio under the last rays of autumn sun. My grandfather died today, or should I say passed away since he died peacefully during the night in his sleep. The Swedish expression for "passed away" are slept away. I am grateful for him passing in his sleep and that he found rest. He was very ill and any longer time with us here would have been agony, for us all but mostly him. I went to see him yesterday, on a whim. I even picked up my brother on the way and together we got grandma and we went to the hospice to see him all three of us. He was clear and happy to see us, even asked about Clara, and laughed at her having been in a fight with Irjas old cockerel who survived with broken tail feathers and a severely knocked ego. This was a good day to die as the old Indian would have said.......as strange as it sounds we have mourned him long and now we feel relief more than sadness. It was a blessing for my grandmother to know he is not suffering anymore and even more a blessing for us all that she can live her last time in peace. She has never known peace in her life and I am joyful that she now have the opportunity to know it.

Workwise life is going absolutely brilliant......I am one of the best performers in my team despite being the latest hire so I am happy. I could see the results in this months paycheck too and after three years of near ( if not in definite) state of poverty it is such a relief in mind and soul.....I have my life back. Never mind the wretched car needs a 1500$ fixer upper....I will handle it ...

The horses are moving to Irjas.....which is another peace factor in my mind and soul....my longest friend here...since 20 years...and also who I used to stable my old eventer with when I lived in Scania 15 years ago. It feels good.......Irja is a mum of two living with beloved husband Peder who in between working as an ambulance nurse finds time to build stables for my horses so I can have peace in my life......remarkable people and real friends...not pretend friends.........Claris are with Marita now. Happier dog has seldom been seen, I pick her up every night tired, filthy, stinking and deliriously happy. Life with four Labradors takes its toll....lol! I think the greatest thing for her is to see melker again.....melker who she grew up with and who she has known all her life. The catsters are cool....not yet decided wheter to move indoors or continue to roam the woods a couple of more weeks...they drop in for a snack now and then, occasionally napping in the breadbasket, but in a couple of weeks I know they will suddenly appear every moring to sleep away the day indoors rather than under the shrubs by the pond as by summer "mode".

Me, Irja, the kids, Isa and jens went to a small animals farmer market today, we tried to sell 12 of their ducklings but came home with a new chicken instead, plus ducklings. Clara was extremely interested by a beautiful Belgian Blue rabbit, much the same size as herself and much to our amusement a photographer from the local newspaper caught her in a moment of "rabbit/dog" contact. Hopefully it will make its way in the paper tomorrow! If it does I will post it here!

¨Well....that was all....I am in the midst of building a website of my own so plans are to simply move this blog onto that one and try update more often.......and in an easier way....